Please Pray for My Son and My Wife

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  • Makoshark75

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    Praying for you all. Thank you for your faith and diligence in caring for your precious family. May the One who never leaves nor forsakes His children uphold you by His Holy Spirit presence as you feel Him near your broken hearts.
     

    fl57caveman

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    “My home is in heaven. I’m just passing through this world.”

    time is short. Angels will escort Jack into the Presence of the King of Kings.
     

    fv22

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    With great sadness I have been reading your posts about your wonderful son. After your latest I wanted to respond immediately but with the tears in my eyes and the thoughts of the fight my wife and I went through with her glioblastoma diagnosis I was unable to get myself to start typing anything. Now, several hours later I can only say to remember all the good times and know that many are praying for your son, you, and your entire family. I don't know you, but I know you are strong to deal with this as you are.

    Just today I received an email about resources for pediatric brain cancer. I don't know if anything they have can help, but here is a link to the website they referred to.
     

    M60Gunner

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    Respectfully request this thread be moved to the in memoriam section. One of my IT friends is gonna help me print just my posts as a journal for my living children some day, God willing. Thank you to everyone who has just been amazing with kindness and donations. I didn’t know there were any other stand up guys left in the world. You know who you are and don’t seek notoriety which is of course part of being a stand up guy. We live by a code as honorable men others can’t fathom.
    Tried to post the final entry in my son’s journey but says I cannot as it is over 10k characters. I will try to break it up I guess, but my head hurts. I don’t get headaches, how do people stand it?
     

    M60Gunner

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    I thought I would be able to post about this. The oncologists told us he would go in his sleep. Got it typed up and it was too big. Struggling with my wife for several minutes the day before to make out the last words he said to me, I love you. Thought I could break it up, perhaps in 4 parts for the 4 times I had to watch my beautiful five year old son die in my helpless arms, suffocating, drowning, violently struggling to breathe, fighting like the tiger he told us he was in his heart. Literally coming back to life again and again and again to fight. Telling him how I loved him how proud I was to be his father what a wonderful boy he was so smart so funny so loving so brave. How he could continue to watch over his mom and baby sister from Heaven while his brother and I watch over them from our lowly plain here. No Hemingway hero was ever as stoic or magnificent. I did read it to his sisters who were not present during the horror. The amazing rock of Gibraltar his 10 year old brother is. Telling me throughout this entire hell from the day of diagnosis it was going to be ok because God told him so. Defying his mother, who has no siblings to understand the love a brother can have, to be by Jack’s side and mine professing his love til that final heartbeat. After Jack died and came back the first time she ran into the yard slamming the door so hard it shook the entire house. His god mother who was also there going after her. Me screaming for her. Her coming inside just in time to hear and marvel at his final spoken word, somehow spoken clearly, Mom. The way she said his spirit led her to the other futon and kept her there so she did not have to bear the final horrible battle or the last dreadful exhale. Horrific enough the vomiting the morphine the repeated deaths she did have to endure. Watching helplessly as our son her favorite child was stolen from her from the inside out slowly over these agonizing months. Jack’s spirit entering me, the most pure perfect feeling of love I’ve ever experienced, grabbing his brother to me and hearing him exclaim I feel him dad! Washing him, dressing him, kissing his cheeks, his forehead, his lips, his hands, brushing his hair, looking into his perfect blue eyes one final time. Almost faltering when I had to pick up his stiffening body to carry him out, but God held true to his promise of giving me the strength. Sinking to my knees, screaming over and over punching the ground as he was driven away, his puppy trying to follow. Catching his mother as she collapsed, our remaining son holding us as his sisters wailed. I wake up choking like my son on these nights, 0300 and I’m bumbling around the house crying calling his name. Catch my reflection in the mirror and recoil from what I see. Praising God in front of my wife and children for the time we had, ensuring I set the example and take the yoke as husband and father. Jack died the last time at 0405 on 30 Sep. Harvest moon, the last super moon of 2023. Son, brother, angel.
     

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    RVGuru

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    As the father of a five year old There are no words to fully reflect the sorrow this brings. Jack’s story has touched our lives in so many ways we have, and will continue to pray for Jack and the rest of your family that you will find the strength and peace to move forward.
     
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